As some of you would remember, for my Editor’s letter in Issue #7 I touched a bit on mental illness, specifically my own personal experience and how pole has helped me through it. It’s with great difficulty I am writing today to tell you all that the last 6 months for me have been the darkest I’ve had in a long time. Partly because of my depression, from working two jobs as well as running the magazine and partly because of other health problems which has limited the time I would normally spend dancing to keep myself sane. I kept quiet for a long time because I was ashamed. Ashamed that I let this illness take over me hence delaying the release of issue #8. I feel like I have failed as I have always pushed through in the past but this time I just couldn’t. I would work myself into the ground until I got sick. Some days I couldn’t even get up, others I would need an afternoon nap. It was debilitating.

I would like to extend my deepest apologies to all APDM subscribers, sponsors and followers for the delay in the release of Issue #8. I am grateful to have so many people who wait for the magazine to come out each quarter and I am sorry I have let you down. I can assure you that Issue #8 will be out just in time for Christmas within the next fortnight and will resume quarterly as usual thereafter.

Moving forward, I am excited to officially announce that we are expanding the Australian Pole Dancers Magazine team. In the past I have predominately run a one woman show in terms of publishing the Magazine. I would like to introduce two very special women who over the years have proven that they are just as passionate about this as I am.

Image credit Vertigo Photography

Firstly, Cecily. Cecily has been doing my book keeping since Issue #3. Recently she has gone above and beyond for the magazine; travelling interstate with me to help out at events, following up invoices, writing up budgets and recording every last detail to make tax time a breeze.  I am excited to announce that Cecily is now officially part of the APDM family and she will be taking up the role of Account Manager.

Image credit Chi Chu Photography

Secondly, I’m ecstatic to announce I will no longer be flying solo… Introducing my new business partner, Ally! Some might know Ally as the driving force behind Pandemonium and also the current Victorian Pole Championships Amateur champion! When I was seriously considering throwing in the towel Ally was the one who picked me back up and basically said APDM is too important to give up on. She is the reason we were able to launch our new online hub, Polesphere and host the Felix Cane Pole Championships within a week of having the idea. She is an absolute gun.

I would like to extend my thanks to everyone for their ongoing support of Australian Pole Dancers Magazine. It’s all up from here and with the support of Cecily and Ally, I can’t wait to share the amazing ideas we have in store over the coming months.


  1. Jane, I’m so sorry you’ve been going through this. I, too, suffer from depression. I’m amazed at how you’ve managed everything on your own until now! Hugs to you.